Hvot - Sunbleached Prozac Lyrics

      

sunbleached prozac
by Hvot

verse 1
Home all alone, staring at my ceiling
Thoughts arent my own, like it’s a another fuckin being
Got me preppin my gravestone, my sanity is fleetin
But that's what they want, get her addicted; get her feeling
Like you don't have a choice, the only option is before you
Like you don't have a voice, you never had a point of view
And when you say what you want, you’re never given what you're due
Extorted for cash, your family doesn't have a clue
Layin in bed, tryna forget all that
Havеn't changed my clothes in like a week and a half
Eyеs are drying up, im thinkin bout how long will i last?
But thats the last straw, bouta run away; full blast
Im passing this; passing right by my past and shit
Fasting, losing my passion, and
Masking all of this rasping with
Ranting you’ll never comprehend
Asking what all this leads to
A world where no one can see you
Your best moments in the rearview
They never will know the real you
I wonder, "what is the purpose"?
Im shattered under the surface
I whisper that i deserve this
While cutting my epidermis
(cutting my epidermis)

verse 2
Its been like a year, and nothin’s changing with my feelings
I dunno what to do, other than acting on the urges
When my family asleep, i hope they never hear me purging
"old habits die hard" this one came back into the living
Waiting for the day that purple flowin' through my veins
Sadly, its difficult to clean up purple stains
I know that my therapist had told me to refrain
But she won't ever know, i keep it outta frame
Thinking about all the things ive lost
Like me and him, it was a double double cross
You froze my heart, and never let it defrost
So now i keep it inside, i bet its growing fuckin moss
You put a fuckin spotlight on the places that i hated
So i starved myself and waited, and i waited for your praising
And your comments, they negated all the pain that i was laying
You’re a stupid fucking bitch, i hope you know that im elated