Astacia Arienette - Metempsychotic Lyrics

      

Metempsychotic
by Astacia Arienette

Art died and god died
While Nietzsche was alive
But in my life, I'm lifeless
I got lost, at what cost
We're semi star-crossed
In angelhood, I'm flightless

 In a past life, I am sitting by myself
In a monastery, contemplating hell
In my next life, I am ready to be yours
In your arms, I don't know what for

 Somewhere down the line I died
Between where I loved and where i cried
You shouldn't do it at all if you don't do it by the book
Tear open my ribcages and tell me how good I look

 In my head, I'm almost dead
Half my enemies are Aquarius born men
Half my soulmates were born on the same day as Leonard Cohen
If I'm not counting him

 In my mind, i'm almost nine
And I haven't learnt what the world means yet
I wish i never learnt how to forget
But the world turns and i can't promise i'll change
In the ways you want, or in any ways

 But in my dreams I'm seventeen
Watching Priscilla on the cinema screen
But I'll never be seventeen again
Sitting by lakes with snakes I called my friends
And swimming, never partake if I'm not winning
But I always am

 And everyone's writing a book
And none of them are any good
And everyone claims they're an artist
But nobody knows what art is

 In my past life, I was a rockstar in a different way
In my past life, I was Jim Morrison and he couldn't stay
In my past soul, I was courageous but I lost it
In my past soul, I was crazy and lawless

 Cumming to single use paramours
Coming to in corner liquor stores
But I'm not like that anymore
I am so excited to get to know my soul
I'm not contrived, what I am I don't yet know for sure

 Earth kept turning when the music stopped
And country music has ruined pop
I miss when Lana loved New York
But she's happy now and I am not

 I don't expect
You to get
Anything about me
But it'd make it easy
Don't forget

 I miss the days before the music died
Who's is my soul and where does it's body lie?
And what happens after our souls go?
Maybe I don't want to know
What happens after our souls go?
I almost loved you but you're so

 Elusive and dangerous, aren't you?
I want to go back to a time where I knew
How to sacrifice myself to love you
But these days, I don't think I could go through it

 Just tell me I'm authentic
Just tell me I'm wanted
I don't care if you meant it
I am metempsychotic

 I am long dead, I am born again
I am nothing and everything
I am seven hundred, I am not yet born
I'm a ghost of a man that you shouldn't mourn

 I am yours
I am nought
I am priceless and selling and bought
I am god
I am not
I am a careless afterthought
I am solid
I'm dissolving
I am thoughtless
I'm all knowing

 I'll keep you
In my grave
If I reach you
Will you be brave
For the first time
If I'm worth it
If you're still mine
If I earned it

 I don't know how to breathe anymore
I'm not a body and I'm not a soul
(I am metempsychotic)
I don't know what I'm breathing for
My brain is broken and my heart's a hole

 I don't know how to breathe anymore
I'm not a body and I'm not a soul
I don't know what I abhor or adore
But I've known my fate since I was nine years old

 Can your soul be mine
Can they fuse together
For the rest of time
For ever and ever?

 Can i keep you
If I reach you?
If I love you?
If I eat you?
If I kill you?
If I need you?
Would you love me
If you need to?